01/01/2007
I don't need anyone...
Life is harsh, I know. And sometimes you can't rely or lean on to the people that you expect to be there for you. Instead they pinpoint other people to have some sort of "responsibility for you".
I'm really pissed off today. I know, I'm 19. I should be able to do things on my own now. In fact, I should be doing everything on my own now. Unfortunately, I'm in the Philippines. Here, age doesn't matter and parents will have an eternal hand on their kids until they die. Anyway, I'm supposed to get my passport and my mom was supposed to come with me. She promised me a date and suddenly she couldn't.
That's not the big deal.
The thing is she suddenly points her finger to my boyfriend that he's the one who should go with me and blah blah blah... She suddenly wants him to be very responsible and all, suddenly doing the role of the husband but damn, I'm not his wife. Suddenly my mom wants a perfect BF for me...
In fact, what she wants is a perfect maid for me. One that can go with me anytime, anywhere with no complaints. Well, someday I'll play God and tell the world what to do in her face. In the mean time, I'll play a slave for myself just like how it all started from the beginning. I grew up with my parents never helping... only at times when I'm falling apart.
I never asked for help... maybe that's why they don't want to help when I start screaming for it. It's not pleasant. There's a border line with what I can do and what I can't. The problem is that they won't believe me when I've crossed that line...
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Hi! I would tell you not to be snowed under such thoughts. At your age you should now think about studies and your future, but not about family. Maybe it sounds senslessly, but you really must think about yourself now.
Your parents are in great position. They are independent, they have to work, they gain money, etc. and what do YOU have?
This blog, where you share your troubles and thoughts from the depth of your soul?
Sure, I don't know you and what are you living for or for what. Maybe you have part-time job or other source of money, but if not, remember:the sooner you become independent, the better it would be for you. Your parents will observe those changes-your independence, material status,maturity and family unconcern and it would be a turning-point in your relations. But please, understand me in a right way. I don't mean you should not be present at home, quarell with parents, don't by even bread at home, no. You should behave yourself as the best child in the world. Do everything to please your parents, but separetely. Do your room and house while they are not in home, put more flowers in your mom's room(natural ones), buy to your father after shave cream and buy food in your house!
To complete this mission, surely you must find a work, so after reading my message, set out in search of a job! Not just for the above mentioned, but for yourself, for your own necessities.
So, good luck to you, happy holidays and best wishes!
Remember:we live just once, so let it be on maximum!
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Posted by: Jesy | 01/08/2007
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