`Perceive`

There are times when you think you had it all - the perfect family, the best friends, the great boyfriend/girlfriend. You can't help but imagine life without them and you turn miserable. That's when you realize that you rely on them. Of course, for strength - emotionally, for comfort, for security... for your own sake.

 After all these, you live your so-called "close to perfect life" and that's when you fall apart. Well, at least not all of you. I've witnessed a lot of friends get frustrated, my parents get separated, and my brother having no group mates despite all his friends. And no, these people don't really have anything in common except for the fact that I know them.

Anyway, to get to the point I'm writing this because I'm more than frustrated. I'm miserable. These people that I've mentioned - friends, relatives, bf's/gf's - are all part of this thing. No matter how close we can be to them, we still shouldn't rely on them. Of course, it's not possible or so we thought.

The more that we lean on them for our comfort, the more that we expect something from them. And because of that, we learn to depend on them - to hold on their promises. The more that we do, the more that we get hurt. Sometimes, even the closest person that we call friend can't be there for us just when we need them the most especially if we catch them unprepared. And sometimes, the people that we thought was our knight in shining armor or our fairy princess just couldn't be there in time to help us out. In fact, sometimes our parents can't even stand beside us when we thought they're our last resort.

Of course we can't always have what we want and our disappointment will always be there - but haven't you thought?

This is the reason why many people get hurt - they (we) depend on other people that's why we end up in disappointment or worse.

They say that no man is an island, perhaps right. Our source of joy are these people around us... but they're also the ones that cause us so much pain.