`Perceive`

Hahah! You Lose!!

Those were the very words I wanted to say to her face.

Anyway, things are getting worse everyday between truth and plasticity. It really sucks that we have to let some things go by "unnoticed" as if nothing happened. Really, as if...

I'm not really in any mood to go brag about anything so I'll just update everything this week.

By the way... it's exam week!! 

I know this girl through someone else. Through how I first knew her, she was awesome. The person who introduced me to her was like fascinated with her. So let’s call this girl Liz.

Well my friend loved to tell me about Liz – that she was cool, had a super cool boyfriend who was also famous, had a rich and happy life – a perfect girl. Note, this is a true story.

So I was like, “really!? She must be really lucky!”

Or so I thought.

Sooner or later, my friend and I realized there was something wrong with Liz. Her stories were inconsistent and she was afraid that we would spread her story of her life to other people – one thing that isn’t usual with a person proud of herself, especially of her boyfriend.

She was living a fairytale based on The OC, One Tree Hill, Laguna Beach and other teeny bopper series on TV.

It was weird, I thought she was true. The problem is why did she have to tell us these things that weren’t true? It felt really awkward finding out that all her life’s stories were lies. It would have been better if this was just a story… but this is real life and we’re real people she’s playing with.

There are times when you think you had it all - the perfect family, the best friends, the great boyfriend/girlfriend. You can't help but imagine life without them and you turn miserable. That's when you realize that you rely on them. Of course, for strength - emotionally, for comfort, for security... for your own sake.

 After all these, you live your so-called "close to perfect life" and that's when you fall apart. Well, at least not all of you. I've witnessed a lot of friends get frustrated, my parents get separated, and my brother having no group mates despite all his friends. And no, these people don't really have anything in common except for the fact that I know them.

Anyway, to get to the point I'm writing this because I'm more than frustrated. I'm miserable. These people that I've mentioned - friends, relatives, bf's/gf's - are all part of this thing. No matter how close we can be to them, we still shouldn't rely on them. Of course, it's not possible or so we thought.

The more that we lean on them for our comfort, the more that we expect something from them. And because of that, we learn to depend on them - to hold on their promises. The more that we do, the more that we get hurt. Sometimes, even the closest person that we call friend can't be there for us just when we need them the most especially if we catch them unprepared. And sometimes, the people that we thought was our knight in shining armor or our fairy princess just couldn't be there in time to help us out. In fact, sometimes our parents can't even stand beside us when we thought they're our last resort.

Of course we can't always have what we want and our disappointment will always be there - but haven't you thought?

This is the reason why many people get hurt - they (we) depend on other people that's why we end up in disappointment or worse.

They say that no man is an island, perhaps right. Our source of joy are these people around us... but they're also the ones that cause us so much pain.