`Perceive`

Yeah, I won't be bragging about Jhay... time to put it to a halt. Facing reality, I think it's time now to be real.

So, this is how it went. Ang lola ko, si Jette, nireto na naman ako to this guy. So, I thought this would again juz like the first one. Sana mas girl siya... whatever bullshit. Pero, plus factor... this guy has a band kaya na-convince ako ni Jette to go for it.

Gig nan OranGe and Lemos *JaN.17* was when I first saw him. My previous blog mentioned his band - Stuka Siren. So there we were, setting sights on each other! Hahaha! Hindi naman siya lumapit... but we continued texting. The next day, I went to Lumban Laguna to watch Raymund perform with his band this time. Then the next day, I ended up with thee guy... the reto guy... his name is Jess.

Okay, so that was our first "date" sa E! & the next Sunday, we went out. Alam ko, it's really quick. I mean, we've known each other technically by only two weeks and four days to be exact and add three days through text. So, kamusta naman????

Eh di ayun, aus diba... sobrang pareho sa music, sa interest, at akalain mo, he happens to be a soccer player way back in his high school days.. So... we sort of jammed in a lot of ways.. kaia....

kAmi Na! hehe... goodluck!

**AnYwaY,**

it's cool actually that Jess isn't this uber possesive Bf,,, i still manage to go out and hang out... with his blessings. Last night I was over Alexis' place... got tipsy though...but enjoyed the night away.

ThEy Rock!! i watched them along side Stuka Siren and Confused... damn they rock...

I like the other two bands who also performed as front act for Orange and Lemons last Tuesday.... but Kaikatsuna is so emoCoRe and their song Jennifer H. Balahura... *marvin's masterpiece* is something that i've been hearing for quite a while now... and it juz wouldnt leave my head,,, its been there for more than a month now. finally i opened this site where i can play it again and again but that's so not enough.. i need a copy...

so i tried downloading it but i couldnt so i emailed them... they finally answered (in less than 24 hours) and im gonna get m'own fuckin copy next week on my way home again!! ahahahahahah!!

So then we tried.... (baboy, baboy, putang ina mo, baboy ka)

to deny all the thing but then...

It hurts inside... (baboy, baboy, putang ina mo, baboy ka)

go keep on hurting me

go keep on hurting me...

and if you don't have a car... well damn... you still hit me somehow...

Oh! ano bang pinoproblema ko!? aba'y tanungin ko ba naman kau...

neweiz, it's saturday and i'm somehow freaking bored by the whole week... marami naman kaming nigawa kahit 3 araw pa lan yung classes pero kahit na, medyo nakakatamad pa rin. we still got a hang over of the xmas break. medyo nakakairita talaga...

Wednesday,nanood kami ng King Kong.... aba'y akalain mong may kakaibang lovestory of some sort. anyway, i got this crazy review of it and other stuff we did,, some perspectives about kingkong beating up big dinobarney...

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So, standing right in front of our gates a brand new black Mercedez SLK hit me, running over my body and it, well, obviously got away with it. I'm technically left bleeding with me singing Happy Birthday in a monotone voice. Almost dead, maybe still dying but unfortunately still alive.

So what is this all about? ay, wala lang... isa na namang reklamo... gusto ko talaga siyang batiin ng happy beerday. pero bakit pa eh ni wala siyang paki sakin. okay, uki, talagang todo emote ako... pero swear, totoo. Sa Jan.9 ang mismong bday nia, pero ngaun yung celebration. marami pa kong nalaman bout jhay, and i dont know who to believe.

so im like caught up in my personal exile from reality making myself believe the truth but too reluctant to let go of my dreams... and it sucks, especially having to cry over it... when it won't even help. he don't give a shit. and my friends will definitely make me eat shit when i do something spectacular a.k.a. rewriting my historical fiasco over and over again.... cuz i am in love with the wrong guy...