`Perceive`

It's not simple... not like what others thought that it's simply the music and nothing more... like that you jive into the latest trend and go to the next.

Real love of music is a devotion - not singing the newest song and what's hot suddenly changing beats when it's no longer what everybody listens to. And there are so much more than knowing what you're listening to, singing by heart... and looking forward to sticking to it. There are pre-requisites.

I recon a lot would disagree, probably because they don't do the things I'm about to say.

I met this guy, Francis. He's annoying and overly self righteous for a sixteen year-old know it all. For the record, he posts lectures about bands, the roots and everything else. He would make you look pathetic for a beginner and nonetheless a jerk if you knew it all. I hated him for once and learned to appreciate him for now, but not always.

I thought, isn't it just the music? The love of it, and I meant the real love of it? Do I really have to know other genres than what I wanted to listen to?

Answer is yes, there were certain pre-requisites.

Loving rock music is more than singing rock songs but knowing them by heart, and I have always believed you must know the roots. You can't love what you never knew. But then I was jamming with three bands last night, trust me I'm still halfway dizzy up to now. They sounded like nerds talking about the beginnings and all... considering that one was alternative, the other was ska and the other, sort of... greyhounds style (i dunno the genre). I knew a lot but missed the important facts and ended up with a stare.

No, you must not know how all things started. How did rock form, who started when and where...
you must know... just for the record you don't run blind missing a lot of things in life. Truth is... it's pure knowledge I suppose.

Real rockheads are stupid. Some may have died on drugs while writing their songs, consider literature. Lisa Loeb is a math genius, and more of them knew more than GMack's CEO.

They say rockers were the outcasts, plainly stupid and dirty. Come to think about it...you have no idea at all...

 

I haven't updated.. again for quite a while.

I was really busy and I think this life has taken a toll on me.. Yes, it's not my original line... Remember Maroon Five? Errr.. Anyway, so many things have happened since this semester had started...

So here it goes for a quick round up:

**HeCtic... Career WoMan?!**

Aww, come on.. Naniniwala ka ba?

Hahah! Yeah I'm pretty serious...

• Pintados..

So., ang dami naming napasukan na kung anu-ano. I renewed my CBA Concepts membership... It's the Business Ad's production. Well, I was there last year but believe me, the only good contribution I had there was being the Emcee for the Business Ad's general assembly. So, so, ayun! Ngaun... active member ako!! Witwiw!! Hihi... ^_^

In connection with that... I got into this mural contest in CET's Science and Technology Week... chuva... I was with Ern and Mich, two classmates and also members of Concepts. Hmm... we didn't win though. It was really disappointing but I wouldnt post my personal insights on that... mananahimik muna ako, ayoko nan gulo dahil lang dun no!! Pero, it was really disappointing in my part.

...not to mention that I wasted one pair of uniform for that! Imagine, my uniform looked like an abstract work of art with splashes of paint.

• business bitchy bitch bitch...

Then, we've been really busy with our prelim exams and... other activities!

amfoootah.... other activities daw oh? Ako ba toh? boi...

Yep, I'm freaking serious. Last week we went to Araneta again then next week we're gonna have this field trip to this Trade Expo in Megamall. Next to that... We're going to start our training in JAPI. How I wish I get into a good group to make a good company.

• Web Geek

Umm.. I've also made a website. It's currently under construction but I'd be really glad if you guys come to check it out...

**My DiSaPpoiNtments**

Dang rami... napakarami at halos di na mabilang nan daliri ko kahit sobrahan mo pa ng isang daliri na meron ding kuko sa gitna nan kamay ko...

I really had lots of complaints and brags... and it includes my eternal battle with myself. Awwwwe., I hate myself.

• The perfect concoction for failure

I've written this in my other blog. I guess in friendster or what...

Anyway, there's this competition where our delegates lost the place for the Top Five. It was really disappointing knowing that we're a good school and we always manage to get there!

Then I could've let it go but when I knew who some of the members were... amf., wala nang tanong - tanong... sigurado na! Mga ningas kugon! Yup... a bunch of ningas kugon - meaning people who are really good at convincing others that they can do something or achieve something; or people who at first are really hardworking and persevere but... suddenly, parang bula - like bubbles, **POP** they're gone into thin air as if they weren't there...

Oh, it's so sad... I hate those guys... Here are some lines from these people:

• **Blind item Ningas Kugon #01 : really good at starting something with words...

 She goes like "oh, we can do this or that then we'll get this or that! I definitely know how to do this, where to get that, and we can succeed!"

pretty convincing, huh?

then., she even goes like, "Okay, this is what we do... (gives instructions and then suddenly says) but I can't be around, I have this fashion show. Can you guys do that while I'm not around!?

so you think she'll be around... the next time around? so you think she did her part while she's away to somehow contribute something and help you out? but you're wrong. Here's a sample of a text conversation:

you SMS her about her progress and ask her if she's done something and she says, "umm.. I haven't finished it yet. But I will, I'm sorry but I'm pretty busy with our project in blah blah blah."

now you feel assured that she's still, somewhat do it. but then., a few HOURS or one day before submission she sends you a message saying...

"hey, I'm really sorry but I have tonsillitis... I can't type anything!"

Hmmm.. I thought tonsillitis was the inflamation of the tonsil in the throat... But now I think the tonsil in on the hands and she can't type cuz her hands are inflamed. Now it made wonder - it's either her tonsil is found on her hands and it's inflamed so she couldn't type or she uses her mouth to type.

NOw, for the other blind item.. let's just say he has no talent at all... ^_^ cuz he barely gives a damn. his glasses can definitely fool you.

• Fuck the self righteous...

you know what that means...

SO.. that'll be the round up..

maulit muli.. hihi.. ^_^

 

this is my baby...

ylrebmik

my first guitar actually... i sometimes pity myself... i mean, kahabagan nio naman ako... akalain mong 18 years na ko sa mundong ibabaw and i'm juz starting to learn the guitar. it's only been two weeks now... but i think i learned quite a lot in two weeks - partida - may summer class pa ko! woohooo ang yabang nan potah na toh.. heheh...

this is me... oh, need more to say??

--> ang pinaka pudpod kong kataga kabilang sa mga sumusunod:

• ang pagiging rakista/emo whatsoever ay hindi lan sa porma nakikita... nasa puso at musika!
• i can't take the company of fake people
• bhoooooooooooooot!

so last sunday i went to church with jess... en it sort of freaked me out when he didn't want to me wear my "weird" outfit, or rather the more than the usual jeans and shirt outfit of mine. it kinda sucked. no, it really sucked... i mean, ano ba?????? but of course, i had to let it go. it's the piece of me he'll never see again unless accidentally. i want him to get used to that side of me, my weird sense of dressing up not caring if they think it's funny, autistic or whatever bullshit... but it's not gonna happen anytime soon...

and then...

tomorrow i'm going to get my classcards... it's gonna be boring and fun... oh, the irony of things. 

libre mangarap...

ito ang pangarap naming banda...matuloy kaia???? hehehhe.... can you imagine i juz made this ticket for us!! oh... dreaming is for free!

Straight Edge... i've never heard of it until I frequently visited Rakista.Com

Back then, I had no idea what that was... until this morning...

I was talking to this guy over that site [OMG he's 16 but he sounds really sensible... i appreciate creatures like that]. Then that came into talk, the sXe thing... straight edge, defined in wikipedia or like any other definitions, strong beliefs - no alcohol, no drugs, no smoking and no casual sex.

*poof* kimi burned really quick!

It was something that came into me. I'm still having a conversation with him... this is pretty interesting. Rock with high spirituality. I mean, as a major definition, rockers perish and die drowning in alcohol and suffocating in weed smoke...

It's bloody wrong...

ThEy Rock!! i watched them along side Stuka Siren and Confused... damn they rock...

I like the other two bands who also performed as front act for Orange and Lemons last Tuesday.... but Kaikatsuna is so emoCoRe and their song Jennifer H. Balahura... *marvin's masterpiece* is something that i've been hearing for quite a while now... and it juz wouldnt leave my head,,, its been there for more than a month now. finally i opened this site where i can play it again and again but that's so not enough.. i need a copy...

so i tried downloading it but i couldnt so i emailed them... they finally answered (in less than 24 hours) and im gonna get m'own fuckin copy next week on my way home again!! ahahahahahah!!

So then we tried.... (baboy, baboy, putang ina mo, baboy ka)

to deny all the thing but then...

It hurts inside... (baboy, baboy, putang ina mo, baboy ka)

go keep on hurting me

go keep on hurting me...

***yet again.. another birthday(s)***

Nov. 7 - Last Monday, si Kuya Momond and nag BEERDAY.. asa ka pa.. we celebrated dun sa bilyaran ni Kuya James, the holy place as of now. Hmmm.. di me nakakua ng mga pics eh. Sayang. But it was fine. Medyo nagtagay me ka-rellego ni Lhean. But I never even got close to "drunk" and I find that a breakthrough... why? Mamaya ang storya ^_^

12am na me nakauwi. So much for first day of school.

By the way,, bday din ni ker and charm...

***AnG KwEnTo***

okay, now i got this realization. bakit ko nga ba nakalimutan ang usapan namin ni janey that I'd be like "girly" this sem and so forth?? hmmm.. well, siguro kasi ang tindi ng memory gap ko. anyway, i met this guy. well, he was looking for a GF but then i think we won't "work" kasi I'm not gurly whatever.

a little - i regret that.

so, i was talking to some friends and gosh... janey juz reminded me about the "image change" and I was like... "oh yeah, nakalimutan ko!" For one thing - I find that here, in our so-called conservative country, majority of guys don't take this "punk-rocker-trasher-goth-expressive" girls seriously. Let's face it, we have an image that still clashes with our culture and makes us juz too off the border. Dude, nakakaleche talaga noh!! But then, I'm not suggesting that we all be clones looking like Paris or whoever the "best" girl is. It's just that... I don't know.

I'm still me. Sometimes I think it's being plastic. No, maybe not at all. Cuz it's only the way I dress. Let's juz say being not too edgy would help. (maybe thats the reason why my efforts turned to sh*t regarding the story of HIM). But anyway, I know naman that this so-called change isn't hard kasi it's a part of me na talaga. I mean, mas madalas na nga lang yung pa girly effect. Kasi naman, nagcocontrast... kikay na hindi. Buti pa tropah,, tanggap akong weird! Hindi alam kung tao o alien, babae or bading, sh*t! ang hirap! bading!! (Lherry and Neil, bakit niyo ko sinama sa federation nio??!)

So anyway... when I think back, I've always stated that I'm this so-called hybrid. So I guess it's not really a problem. Let's juz say I'm juz being fed up with the fact that I'd be the next clone but maybe not. Besides, I've been selling these earrings... so... hehe... I think it's not a big deal. I'm juz making it.

***KeRr & ChArM***

Happy Birthdays!!

Nov. 7 - Nov. 6 respectively

well.. miz you guys!! all of you!

I was browsing through the Hale Mailing List today when I came across this...

"SNOB!!" article.

To my curiousity, I opened it and ano ang laman??

Isang nakakapesteng reklamo tungkol sa pagiging "snob" ni Champ. Aba'y akalain mo, ngayon pa naging snob si Kuya Champ!

Ito ang kanyang orihinal na mensahe... (woohoo, tagalog ako at malalim pa! tila nais ko gawing................ bihasa [matagal ko inisip ang term na yun ha] ang aking wika!) ah ewan!

> > --- In hale_music@yahoogroups.com, "snobsichamp"
>
> > wrote:
> > >
> > > Champ is one heck of a snob!! Tinatawag ko siya ilang beses
pero
> > wala
> > > siyang pake! AT! medyo tahimik ang crowd nun! yung katabi ko
> > tinawag
> > > si roll, narinig ni roll yun. e si champ? HINDI! Is he trying
to
> > tell
> > > na he's so sikat kaya mag-ttengang-kawali na siya?? And when
he
> > > smiles, its pilit! sorry halers ah kung masyadong kayong
> > naapektuhan
> > > sa sinabi ko, but its true naman e. di naman siguro ako mag-
> > rereact ng
> > > ganito bout it kung hindi totoo. tsaka nga pala, kung mag-
vovote
> > kayo
> > > sa MYX, vote dahil sa gusto niyo yung kanta. wag dahil sa
crush
> > niyo
> > > yung vocalist nung banda o kung sino man sa memebers. mukhang
> > marami
> > > kaming naka-pansin sa attitude na pinakita ni champ kanina,
may
> > > sumigaw pa nga ng something e, pero hindi ko nalang sasabihin.
> > these
> > > are my last words OPEN YOUR EYES GUYS!

diba, it's so... EPALOIDS AT SUPER PAPANSIN??

Well, I posted my own opinion anyway. Kasi, not because YOU'RE DISAPPOINTED MEANS YOU COULD JUZ BRAG ABOUT IT AS IF YOUR OPINION'S RIGHT! dude pare, hinay hinay lang noh! ang mga feeling sa mundo... binabalahura! Kaya yan, isang tambak na katakotakot na opinions ang pinalamon sayo! Wehehe.. astig ng reply ni Kuya Xavier!!

anyway... tonight na ang Grand EB ng Hale. Too bad, di ako makakapunta but cheers to all who'll be there!!